Only in Utah! 68 degrees yesterday, snowing today :)

We are on the 5th row!!!!

My neighbor Mel took Jackson and her two kids Kiara and Kyson to the Monster truck show today. They were on the 5th row!!!!

Jack loves his Christmas socks! Thanks Mel & Family!

Copper would rather stay in his comfy bed :)

Merry Christmas from my backyard :) Copper looked at me like....You want me to go potty in that?

Names of your little one

October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. One of the nicest and most tender things you can do for a family that has lost a child is to write that child's name somewhere. It really means so much to us. I have posted some of the pictures we have received and you can see me writing Jonas' name along with Addy's name in the sand on the beach of the Great Salt Lake. I wish I had time to write so many more names.

Proud to be an American

Today was 3 months since Jonas died. I try to not think about the date anniversaries, but it was hard to not pay attention to this one. I love when a baby turns 3 months old! This is when they get so interactive and start smiling all the time. I wish I could see Jonas smiling now.

Jackson and I went to a 9/11 Memorial service. It was so comforting being around others who were sad. I know that sounds weird, but it really helped me heal a little. So many people lost their lives on 9/11 and so many people including children die everyday. I know these sweet people including my son are looking out for all of us. They are close to us...I try so hard to not forgot that. We are not separated from our loved ones forever, in fact when we die we can LIVE with them FOREVER. I cannot wait for the day I get to hug my sweet boy. In the meantime Jackson, Josh and I will squeeze each other a little tighter till we can hug you Jonas.

Faces of Loss Faces of Hope

Please check out this amazing website. I cannot even begin to express how grateful I am for all of these women.

Jonas Brett - Died June 11, 2010

Josh, Jack & Jonas' hands

Adorable feet.

Josh, Jonas and My hand

There is no easy way to say this, but I wanted to let you all know that our little boy died on June 11th, the day before my due date. I did not feel him move for a few hours. I went to the hospital to get checked and he had no heartbeat. I delivered him June 11th at 6:37pm. He was 8 lbs 13oz and we named him Jonas Brett. He was adorable, looked exactly like Jackson with pitch black hair. What hurts the most is Jackson wanted his little brother so bad.

We feel the love of our Savior and Heavenly Father and we know the only way we will be able to get through this pain is by having faith in the atonement. We know we will see Jonas again and that he is watching over us now. I will be honest though I would do anything to have him in my arms right now. I miss him more than you can imagine. I pray multiple times a day that I can feel him around me.

I love you Jonas.

Zach and Jackson doing the spider swing :)

Hanging out with my little guy!

I love where we live! It's beautiful.

He was so excited I wrote his name in the sand

It was a bit chilly, but it was fun feeding the ducks.

Jackson was eating mnms. We do brush his teeth :)

I love every bit of him. So fun.

Jack in his Sunday Best

This is why I love having little boys.  They look so cute in their Sunday clothes!

FWD:

fun with Christina at Ikea

Kitchen Upgrade

We finally finished our Kitchen!! Lovely Leith helped us pick out all the colors for the counterop, paint, handles/knobs and tile. My sweet Josh did all the hard work. I did help sand the cabinet doors, but he did 90% of the painting because I am pregnant and he didn't want me exposed to the fumes. So after 3 weeks this is what we ended up with:

This is what the kitchen looked like when we first saw the house

This is when Josh removed the countertop

We tore off the Formica backsplash and tiled it.

This is after Josh's hard work!

The color of the paint is called Cookie Crumb. I loved the name :)

You always hear that the easiest upgrade in a kitchen is adding the hardware and that is so TRUE!!

The easiest part of the whole process was removing the countertops and adding the tile backsplash. The countertops took one day. The tiling took 2 days. It took over 2 and half weeks for sanding, painting and drilling the holes for the hardware! Of course it probably would have went faster if I helped Josh more :) He is amazing and so talented!! After knowing Josh for almost 7 years, he never ceases to amaze me. If he doesn't know how to do something he will study the subject and then accomplish the task!

having fun!