Proud to be an American

Today was 3 months since Jonas died. I try to not think about the date anniversaries, but it was hard to not pay attention to this one. I love when a baby turns 3 months old! This is when they get so interactive and start smiling all the time. I wish I could see Jonas smiling now.

Jackson and I went to a 9/11 Memorial service. It was so comforting being around others who were sad. I know that sounds weird, but it really helped me heal a little. So many people lost their lives on 9/11 and so many people including children die everyday. I know these sweet people including my son are looking out for all of us. They are close to us...I try so hard to not forgot that. We are not separated from our loved ones forever, in fact when we die we can LIVE with them FOREVER. I cannot wait for the day I get to hug my sweet boy. In the meantime Jackson, Josh and I will squeeze each other a little tighter till we can hug you Jonas.